This Time, Yesterday
“This time, yesterday,” I tell a poor victim
“I dug in to a paper so soberingly old—”
Three glasses of whiskey and I was still on my feet (believe it)
“A real manuscript, torn and yellow round the edges,
Where rusted needles had probably crucified it for years,
Against the linoleum wall."
And you said,
Was this your grandfather's?
And warmly and impatiently I replied,
My love this I am yet to know.
Together we opened it and read:
“December 3, 1945.
To-day an old woman said to me:
Young man, you must be assimilated
You must adjust,
You must face youth with virtue.
And in that moment,
In me the soldier, fired up and red
Looked at her with slight remorse.
...
I felt a morsel of truth in her words
But I believe I was afraid to admit to
Who had won,
So today I will myself to be
A god-lover.”
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Out of the remorse and dried flower pots
From well-wishers of the war,
The soldiers and I thought
It could not matter, it is lilting—
But you see class-rooms
had become powerful enough
To descend on our young brains
Like falcons on leathery carcasses
Sifting through the walls, passages,
The hallways and corners of our minds,
Picking apart our perversions and essences
To clear the boulders, and show the light
While we lay, at the cuffs of ignorance
Our lips, as children
Were left to speak only of crucifixions
And public hangings
Spread apart to dry on muslin flatbeds
like chilies laid out in the sun
The very same parchments, we witnessed
Turning from yellow
To red
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